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As I am still new to blogspot, I am still learning how to navigate most of it. But I have already posted 3 items there as trial. Maybe some one can give me a blogspot tuition please.

Well I am back after a while being missing. My grandma pass away last Thursday. I just got back from my hometown at 1am yesterday. As I am typing this update, I am feeling damm tired physically.

We had 2 parts of funeral service. The 1^st was from Thursday till Saturday in PJ Crematorium. It was tiring for me as I was push to the limit. Had to drive around to get stuff, pick up people, take care of the place and entertain people who came (parents friends when parents are not around). The 2^nd part was in Jerteh on Sunday. On Sunday we didn’t have service but I was there like for the 24hours shift (I didn’t do 24hours as I was too tired). I was there to keep my dad company but I slept on the job. I slept on the 3 chair downstairs and it was freaking cold as it rain at 530am. As my dad was bitten by the aedes mosquito last time, I put a lot of mosquito coil around my place I was sleeping and I blast the fan no 5.

Final words is it was a tiring funeral service.

I just got back from the hospital. Don't worry I am not hurt at all. It is just my grandma who came over after staying with my uncle for a couple of days is now in UH. She has a lot of phlegm stuck in her throat / chest / don't know where in her. And she cannot breathe and she was like suffocating. My parents, sis and her hubby then drove down to UH and brought her to Emergency Unit as it was quite bad.

The doctors there are like so darn good and they really prob into the patient's health history and explain what they are going to do and what they are currently doing. They explain that my grandma condition is very bad and she wont last long and that they will try their very best to treat her. They even ask us what we want to do if my grandma was etc etc (don't know what on earth they are talking about medical terms)

I still remember when my grandmother was in my house like at the start of last month and she was still cursing her daughter and now she can't even walk and eat nicely. It's like a drastic change from the last time till today. I know that most of you read my post before and I hated my grandma, well actually I still don't like her to be honest. There are things I wish she didn't do but she did. My mum actually ask me why I hate my grandma but I told my mum I don't know when actually I know very well why I hate her. I just don't want to reveal this to my mum.

Chin Yee told me to settle what ever I don't like about my grandma inside my heart as she understands what I am really going thru. I know it is not good to hate people as even Pastor Daniel always reminds us to forgive and forget and not to hate people. I guess I got to dig really deep into me to find a way to forgive my grandma.  

The hospital that my grandmother was admitted before was a total trash hospital. This hospital is some where near DU (I bet you know which hospital is this). This hospital don't even know where the infection of my grandma is coming from, every time the consultant comes and see a patient by saying "hello how are you" cost rm120 and other stupid cost which is freaking high.

Trust me if you have an emergency, just go to UH hospital. Their equipments there are freaking good and the doctors there know what they are doing. Don't go other private hospitals for treatment. It is freaking expensive. Trust government hospitals.

Was in Pastor Daniel house yesterday to help Aunty Doris with her laptop as she cannot receive any mails that is send to her. She could send mails but not receive. It was really tough time to troubleshoot what was the root cause of it, but in the end I knew it was the mail server that was not responding to her request. Man her laptop has a lot of virus too. Wish I could reformat for her, but where am I going to find all the original software? I mean they are Senior Pastor and Senior Pastor wife, so I just cant use pirate on their laptop right? Not good idea, just incase I get in trouble then I'm dead :P actually I have been to Pastor's house like so many times to ask them for help and they ask me for help. I really thank God for you Pastor Daniel and Aunty Doris.

I started my moral class today. But it didn't really go that well as I was unwell. Due to my tonsil my fever comes and goes when ever it wants. That is the worst that I can ever ask for. Tomorrow will be another class and next Wednesday will be the 1^st test and it is a group test. It's an open book test. Then I got an assignment due on the 14^th of November which is 13 days from now. So fast. What to do got to work really hard and pass my moral exam this time.

Since I was early in school today, I decided to download fire fox 2 and try it out. It is really good to me as there are a lot of plugging and extensions that can really help the user a lot. I guess I will continue to use the school computer as a testing item before I bring back any software to be use at home.

As for my grandma, she cannot walk anymore. Reason is Jenny Teo which is her stupid daughter who doesn't love her didn't take care of her nicely for 1 week and my grandma ended up in the hospital. it cost 3K for couple of days only. Jenny Teo you are so ungrateful women. I guess u just forget the tins of milk that u take from the shop and bring back for your kids to drink and when it comes to your parents you cant even take care of them. You even dare to say that it is the boys who need to take care of the parents. Shame on you Jenny. All you want is ur property, steal money to benefit nothing but urself. One day you will just get caught in some situation that no one will ever help you. 

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Well I will update abit of everything.

My friends who saw my post on my mum who don’t want me as a son ask me to be their maids. Yeah I can be your maid if you can pay me at least 2.5K a month. Quite expensive wage for a maid huh?

As for my moral confirm I failed it. Those who say that it’s only a dream, well dreams are real if you walk closely with God you will see more dreams. Going to retake my moral this week.

Yesterday I went for my run with Liz in TTDI park. Didn’t know that they are doing renovation there and it is so sandy. Some places looks like a beach but no sea :P they are taking out all the rubber mats which has already crack due to heat and rain water that gets trap below the mats. Walk was quite ok. Liz was slow like turtle (sorry :P) and I have to keep on turning back and say walk faster or faster faster.  She only walks faster when she saw some monkeys on the tree and I told her that the monkey will take her and make her their queen. Next thing I know she was right beside me. So if you all want Liz to walk faster, bring her to places that has monkeys: P I manage to do 4 rounds, 2 run and 2 walk. Felt it was not enough but I had already lost my stamina. Need to rebuild it from scratch once again.

Saw Brenda at 4pm + yesterday. It has been a while since the last I saw her. Maybe 1 year I guess. Was in 1U with her and catching up with her in Macdees as I had to eat as I was doing ushering at 6pm.

Ushering was quite ok. Many people turn up as it was the Cell Week. The most concern thing for me was the Holy Communion. Most of the time or the last couple of times when my group did the Holy Communion, it got screwed up. Some people didn’t get their bread and wine. This time I made sure everybody gets their share. I was switch to another position yesterday as my dad told Dr Tham that we won’t be doing ushering as we have to take care of my grandmother. To me, serving is serving and if I don’t help, they will need to find 3 people to replace my family. In the end my grandmother didn’t turn up.

2^nd celebration was quite ok. Many people came in due to the cell weekend. There was a kid that pointed his tongue at me when I was looking behind but I didn’t bother. Then after I pass the Holy Communion there was a kid licking the cup and I was like “eeeeeee”. I decided not to look and turn away. After that was dinner time and I went to KFC alone and sat there till 1015. That time my legs really ache due to the morning run. After dinner I came back to church a guy suddenly look at me and ask me “yes are you new here? Are you looking for a pastor to talk too? If you are the pastor is in front”. I was like quite shocked when he asks me the question. I thought as I was a criminal. Then I told him im ushering for the night and he ask me this “what are you doing here then?” I didn’t bother to reply him and I just walk straight into the church. Last week I encounter a little girl that was so cute and I wish I could see her again. I saw 2 kids 1 a gal and 1 a boy. The boy was busy walking around and he was smiling and laughing all the way. The gal was the opposite. She stared at me without blinking and as if I did something to her. Well she was quite cute too but without smile is scarry.

Today my legs and arms hurt due to the walk. I guess I will need to go back to the Hill or park to run once again.

My mum told me she don’t want me as a son anymore. My mum meant what she say. Any takers? Any person who wants an older brother to play with? I know what I can do and what I am weak in. I can do house work and some electrical work. I am technically strong in IT. So if you want some boy in your house let me know.

Just want to wish all my Malay Friends Selamat Hari Raya. Please do go home safely yeah. I got an email from my friend showing an accident picture. According to sources, the car was speeding and lost control and it hit the divider and turn turtle many rounds and the car was on fire. There was some one inside the car when the car was on fire and I guess I don’t have to tell you the rest of the story. The final pictures they took were the bones of the person.

Drive Safely

I guess most of you know that I can see dreams / visions of things that is going to happen or currently happening. Well it is true. Many times I have seen people’s names appearing or even their faces without knowing why. I haven’t been getting that many dreams from God lately maybe because I am a naughty boy. Really God wants to use people who are willing to do his will and does it with willing heart and etc etc. I believe those who are Christians know where I am heading towards.

I actually knew in advance that I failed my moral. As I was sleeping one night, suddenly I was shown this vision. i was shown a piece of paper which has rows and columns on it. It is just like a Microsoft word with tables on it. And there was a highlight on a row and I saw it. I saw my mark at 48 marks only with is equal to a D for normal exam but to moral exam it is a fail as you need MINIMUM 50 marks to pass. As I have already passed my other papers and I was waiting for my moral result I knew this is a confirmation from God that I need to redo the subject. It is quite sad to see that only needed 2 more marks to pass the exam. I saw this dream on the 1^st of October 2006.

I decided to only tell 2 friends but they told me not to worry but I knew really well that dream came from the Lord. There is nothing much I can do for now, but just to repeat my moral paper once again. I believe there is a lesson for me to learn from here. I wish I can really see all this dreams once again. boy do I really miss them a lot. Its like I know a friend MIGHT BE hurting and I will just text him or her and ask if things are ok and they will ask me to pray. Lord let me touch this people once again wont you?

Yesterday I was in church doing ushering. Well seems lixia is always right. When I am near small kids, they tend to fall down. As I was walking around yesterday, suddenly this kid jumps down to where I was taking care and fell down to her knees. This kid was around 4-6 years old. She was extremely cute kid. When she fell down, I didn’t know what to do. Her sister then came and picks her up.

Then at the end of the 1^st service, some kid came behind me and pokes me and told me he lost his parents. I was like “oh ok, how am I going to find your parents?” so I asked him where did his parents last sit and we walk around and his parents was not there. This kid can’t talk clearly and only the last few words can be heard and I had to guess what he was telling me most of the time. So later he say maybe my parents are outside and we went out by the side door and we went looking for his parents. Next thing I know he ran inside the church again and I was “where is this kid going???” I decided not to follow him and I went to the main entrance of the church where I saw Audrey and Gabriel.

2^nd celebration ushering was quite ok. I had to switch positions as 1 usher went home. So I took care in front. After collection of offering I sat behind and there was this lil kid with her mother. She is around 1 year + and extremely cute too. She loves to walk. So I decided to wave at her when ever she looks at her mother. When she looks at her mother she looks at me too. I will wave and she will be shy and she will hide behind the chairs. Every time I wave and smile she will smile back at me and hide behind the chair once again. I thought I can play more with the kid but I could not. She was brought outside later.

As for my moral, well I didn’t pass it. Need to retake it. But the university says I can appeal. But what happens if I appeal and I still fail? Appeal cost rm100. IF after appeal I still fail, I got to redo it the next long semester next year. I guess I shall not appeal. I will redo the subject again.